Still, I Choose Him

Why would God permit the adversary to remain? A reflection on rebellion, grace, temptation, and choosing God when faith must exist without sight.

FAITH

STILL, I CHOOSE HIM

Why would God permit the adversary to remain?

Luke 22:31–32 • Romans 5:8 • Joshua 24:15

There is a question that has troubled believers for generations. If God is sovereign, why does He permit Satan to continue? Why allow temptation, accusation, deception, and doubt? Why allow a creature who rebelled against God to continue moving through a world already wounded by sin?

Scripture never presents Satan as God's equal. There is no great cosmic balance between two opposing powers. Satan is created. God is Creator. Satan is limited. God is sovereign. Whatever influence the adversary possesses exists beneath the authority of the One against whom he rebelled.

We see this perhaps most clearly in the book of Job. Satan does not simply enter Job's life and act without restraint. Boundaries are established. Permission is limited. Even the adversary operates beneath a sovereignty he cannot overthrow.

Jesus gives us another glimpse when He speaks to Peter:

“Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat: But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not.”
— Luke 22:31–32

That passage has always unsettled me.

Jesus does not tell Peter that Satan has no interest in him. He does not promise Peter that the testing will never come. Instead, Christ tells Peter that while the adversary desires him, Christ is already interceding for him.

There are times when God does not remove the trial. There are times when the prayer is not immediately answered the way we expected. There are seasons when faith must continue without explanation.

That does not mean Satan has somehow gained control.

It means faith is being lived in a world where rebellion is still possible.

The Adversary Is Not Necessary

We should be careful not to give Satan more importance than Scripture gives him.

God does not need Satan in order to be God. Darkness is not required to prove that light exists. Evil is not some necessary counterpart to goodness.

Scripture tells us that Satan's rebellion will end. His influence is temporary. God remains when he does not.

So why allow him to remain at all?

Scripture does not give us one simple sentence that answers every part of that question. But it repeatedly shows a God who is able to accomplish His purposes even while genuine rebellion exists.

Human beings are called to trust Him in the middle of that reality.

Joshua stood before Israel and said:

“Choose you this day whom ye will serve.”
— Joshua 24:15

There is something deeply serious about that invitation.

Not because our choice makes us worthy of God.

Quite the opposite.

Grace Comes Before Worthiness

Romans tells us:

“But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.”
— Romans 5:8

Christ did not wait for humanity to become worthy of Him.

He came because we were not.

Christian faith is not the story of men and women proving that they deserve the sacrifice of Christ. It is the story of undeserving people receiving a grace they could never have purchased for themselves.

That changes the question.

We are not standing before God attempting to earn His presence.

We are responding to a God who has already moved toward us.

Lucifer Saw and Still Rebelled

There is another thought I cannot easily escape.

Lucifer saw more than we have seen.

He knew the presence of God in a way we presently do not. He knew glory without the veil under which we live. Whatever else we may say about his rebellion, it was not born from ignorance of God's existence.

And still he chose himself.

That makes the human experience of faith remarkably different.

We have never physically stood before the throne of God. We have not seen heaven opened before us. We live among hospitals, gravesides, disappointments, unanswered questions, damaged relationships, temptation, failure, and the long stretches of life when God can seem painfully quiet.

We are asked to trust what we cannot yet fully see.

And somehow, men and women still do.

A person can bury someone he loves and continue believing God is good.

A woman can carry a prayer for years without receiving the answer she wanted and still turn toward Him.

Someone ashamed of his own past can finally understand that grace was never offered because he had earned it.

Faith does not always arrive loudly.

Sometimes faith is little more than refusing to walk away.

Sometimes it is waking up after disappointment and praying again.

Sometimes it is admitting, “I do not understand You, God, but I still trust You.”

Lucifer saw and rebelled.

We have not seen, and yet Christ calls us to believe.

The Choice in the Darkness

That may be one reason the language of choice appears so often in Scripture.

Not because salvation is some contest of human willpower, but because love cannot be reduced to mechanical obedience.

God calls.

Grace reaches.

Christ saves.

And a human being responds.

The presence of temptation does not make God weaker. The existence of rebellion does not place God's throne in danger. Satan's voice may be loud, but it is temporary.

His story has an ending.

God's does not.

So perhaps the question is not only, “Why does God allow Satan to continue?”

Perhaps there is another question beneath it:

What will I do while I am still able to choose?

I will not always understand what God permits.

I will not pretend every dark season makes sense.

I will not give Satan credit for every hardship, nor will I pretend temptation and evil are imaginary.

But I know where the story ends.

The adversary does not remain forever.

Christ does.

And because Christ loved me while I was still a sinner, my answer does not rest upon my worthiness.

It rests upon His grace.

So when I cannot see the whole road, when faith costs more than I expected, and when obedience would be easier to abandon than continue, there remains a confession I pray I will still be able to make:

Still, I choose Him.

WHY THIS MATTERS TO VAELERIN

The Vaelerin Saga wrestles with rebellion, temptation, pride, grace, suffering, and the terrible consequences of choosing the self over the Sovereign. Those questions begin long before the fictional world of Vaelerin.

The story may imagine the conflict.

Scripture establishes the foundation beneath it.

Vaelerin exists to explore those questions without forgetting where the answer ultimately rests: not in the strength of man, but in Jesus Christ.

“Choose you this day whom ye will serve.”
— Joshua 24:15